I’m taking this opportunity of mental clarity to congratulate myself. Last night while lying in what I thought was a state of unsleepiness, I didn’t get out of bed and vomit all of my feelings onto the internet. I KNOW. In that purgatory land between Awake and Sleep, my tired brain thought that Sleep would [...]
Aside from the whole living-with-anxiety deal I have going on, I’m more of an optimist than a pessimist. That’s why I look at all the positives that come with the big fat negative of being sick with a sinus infection. Keeping up on the latest innovations in tissues. Getting to take naps without feeling guilty. [...]
Looking at my life, nothing. I have nothing to be depressed about, yet there it is. Angie, you suck. Oh, yeah. That. For the first time, I see it there. I recognize it lying to me. My inner monologue that tells me I suck. The me who isn’t me that tells me I’m unloved. It [...]
You know that 2-3 seconds after you flush the toilet when you realize it’s not flushing your deposit as it should and your brain races to find the plunger you hope is right next to the toilet because you just can’t handle cleaning up a bathroom floor covered in poo water? If those are the [...]
I’m probably more like that chicken who lived with no head for 18 months than like a person in charge of other people’s lives. I am at my most vulnerable when things that are supposed to work, stop working. Because I live day-to-day in perpetual sameness, having something go awry will throw me into a [...]