I’m taking this opportunity of mental clarity to congratulate myself.
Last night while lying in what I thought was a state of unsleepiness, I didn’t get out of bed and vomit all of my feelings onto the internet.
In that purgatory land between Awake and Sleep, my tired brain thought that Sleep would not come. As this happens rarely, my first thought was to get up and take a few of my Vitamin K sleepytime pills to gently lull me into night-night. But that thought was immediately followed by the not-so-nice thoughts of jealousy, hurt, anxiety, anger, conflict, and more jealousy.
I had the urge to get out of bed and spill my jealousy guts onto you, the great wide internet.
But I didn’t.
Instead, I fell asleep about 10-and-a-half seconds later.
Thank GOD and Oprah.
When I woke up this morning, I pretty much smiled at my own laziness and sleepiness for NOT getting out of bed in my woe-is-me emotional state. I would have likely embarrassed myself with rantings, leaving a trail of morning-after WTFness.
Good on me.
But bad for you guys because you didn’t get to read my vomitous emo whinings. Maybe next time!