There’s something to be said for peer pressure.
A few days ago, my fellow Curvy Girl, Audrey, asked the internet, “What’s your weight?”
EXSQUEEEEEEEEZE ME?
Well, I NEVER.
How DARE you!
You just don’t ask a lady her weight and expect her to answer you with less than a slap to the face and a stomp out of the room.
Preposterous.
I hemmed and hawed and shuffled my feet and declared, “THERE’S NO WAY IN THE 7TH LEVEL OF HELL I’LL EVER TELL YOU PEOPLE WHAT I WEIGH.”
But even I wasn’t even sure what I weighed. That’s something for me to ignore and my doctor to scribble down on a chart.
It’s kind of an issue, if you can’t already tell.
It’s too high for me and my body type. It’s my fault it’s too high. It’s something that should be lower than it is currently.
It’s embarrassing to admit that I’ve failed at something, and for it to be something that everyone already knows, is even doubly shameful.
In my head.
Together with my friends and sisters, I’m brave enough to take a poop then get on a scale and tell the world my secret.
And in how I do what I do, I reveal myself as a dancing-on-a-bar-couch-in-a-cowboy-hat-in-Vegas, fat and happy woman.
This is what 5'5" & 225lbs looks like.
My friend, Greis, just happened to catch me tipsy and dancing on a couch in Vegas.
Because of course.
My Curvy Girls and I are Getting Real. Join us?
…now hold me, brush my hair, and feed me donuts?
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Remember a couple of weeks ago when I told you how fearless you are? DAMN! I had no idea how true it really is!
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you need to come here every day and tell me that, mkay?
thx.
You are beautiful.
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…no matter what they say.
Words can’t bring me down.
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Awesome you… proud. xox
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i’ll take that, put it in my pocket, and save it for later.
You are the awesome.
*blush*
You look awesome
I wish I had that flat a belly at this weight! I joined the movement and gave my photo now and at my highest weight. Don’t you feel better now by saying it though? Last year I posted a big post about ‘coming out’ where I stepped out from behind my online persona and took ownership of how much I weighed. It was scary at first but then it felt wonderful. It feels REALLY good to not be hiding who I am anymore.
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oh lady. i hate to break it to you, but my belly is anything but flat. to be truthful, i can look at least 6 months pregnant in the wrong shirt. it’s my major trouble area (that and my arms) (and my thighs) (and my chin).
and yes, it does feel good to come out of the fat closet.
Yay!! First, let me say that I found your blog yesterday and I’m really enjoying myself here. I was playing with my boyfriend, StumbleUpon, at work and came across an article about Glamour Shots. Having been a victim of this 90s atrocity myself I took solace in other people’s stories. One of the stories I found was your wedding photo Glamour Shots (btw, AWESOME!) and here I am.
Second, I’m a thicky thicky thick girl myself. Although I can’t deny that I can be self conscious about my body, I’ve never really seen weight as anything but a number. The way I look at it is that I’m going to look the same way whether or not you know that I’m 210lbs. The actual number means absolutely nothing that isn’t patently visible when I try and put on a pair of pants that fit last year. So I’ve never really understood the social taboo of bringing up weight. As if people are going to see me as skinnier if I don’t tell them the exact amount of poundage I have stuffed under my clothes? I say YAY for you and anyone else that overcomes this phobia and throws up their numbers for the world to see!
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i’m honored to have you as my first stalker of 2011.
You win my Big Balls award. Well done.
that’s where i keep all my extra pounds.
First off – I noticed you said chin. Singular, so you’re already winning over me *g*.
Secondly, those stats and that pic look like a whole hell of a lot of fun to me. You rock, lady.
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rawr…
You look awesome, Sexy!
Way braver than I am right now.
you had twins within the last 3 years. you get a pass for everything weight-related for at least 10 years when you birth twins.
You are the RAD, lady. I heart you for the crazy ladyballs it takes to put it out there. I weigh in online on Fridays, but last Friday I was 191.2.
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huuuuuzah for crazy ladyballs!
I love it! Beautiful!
i know you are, but what am i?
all of this… ALL OF THIS… is fucking awesome. the reality of it, the candor, and the freedom that comes with this embrace that took place today (here and on the curvygirl blog) has just astounded me.
::STANDING OVATION::
i’d take a bow, but i’d probably throw my back out and pee a little.
So proud of you! You are amazing!! And that night of dancing on couches in a bar with COWBOYS was one of the most fun nights I’ve ever had!!!
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i know. was amazing.
You have balls of steel. I am too chicken to post.
i’m still shocked i did.
I’m sort of stunned by how incredibly brave you are.
Also? I don’t care whether I’m supposed to say this or not, so Ima just say it… you don’t look like you weigh 225… not even close. Whatever. I’m just saying, you wear it well.
And?
185. And a half.
I think my palms may be sweating.
Hold me?
Share your donuts?
Please?
brave? you flatter.
and on the “don’t look like you weigh” comment, i’m glad you said that. even in high school when i weighed something in the 120s, i felt like i looked like i weighed less. people would guess i was 10-15 pounds less than i was.
i attribute all of this to my incredibly toned muscle undercarriage. i keep it protected with several layers of padding.
and donuts? let’s meet up.
Loove this!
After I sent my stats and pic I waited and waited….holding my breath…wondering how many others would do it.
When I went to the site yesterday, exhale…….so many, so beautiful, so honest.
And when I saw your picture my first thought was “Wow, I’d love to go for a beer with her!”. I’m so proud that I was a part of this group!
10 year pass for twins? Great!!! My twins are going to be 3 in june – I have 7 more years to drop this weight. Woohoo!
I am the same size/weight as you. I just can’t seem to get below this mark. Maybe exercise more, or, you know, at all. But I am so done at the end of the day I can’t imagine a treadmill. I’ve tried. I need to try harder. I lost 25 lbs. by changing my diet and portions. I have no other choice but exercise left. Bleh.
With that being said, you are slammin’ lady. I hope that when people look at me, they see what I see when I look at you. Does that make sense?
You go girl! I am in awe of you and your fearlessness- and you worry ppl don’t like you??? Sheesh- you’re awesome!