it’s just not
possible
to find my happy
when my happy
doesn’t
look at me
touch me
acknowledge me
i’ve been told
to wait
and wait
and wait
and it will come
but my impatience
gets in the way
and the tears flow
like the constant rain outside
so much that
my eyes hurt
my insides hurt
my heart hurts
while i wait
to be seen
this might move
things back a
few weeks
months
years
or make my happy leave
again
but i feel i need to
do this
to be heard
i get myself
in trouble
when i speak
in the middle of the
night
it’s just not the right
time
my impatience
gets in the way
i want my insides
my eyes
my heart
to feel better
happy
again
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Is there something in the water or what? If you want happy, find it girl. I dont know how, I dont know where but its out there somewhere. It might not be where you want it to be, but…. yea. I lost steam right now. I cant give stellar advise right now either but…. yea. *hug*
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We all have peaks and valleys in life. I am in a bit of valley myself. But, I know happiness is within reach. I just need to be brave enough to battle what lies ahead of me to get to that happy place. I hope you find your happy.
I don’t know if I have anything good to say. I’m just…holy 180 from the usual posts.
Zoeyjane’s last blog post..On my right boob
The truth won’t ever set you back.
Xbox4NappyRash’s last blog post..The black humerus
Your happiness is out there, we just have to look in odd places sometimes to find it. Here is to hoping you find your soon!!
*HUGS*
Amy’s last blog post..Officially 4
I found my happy in the bottom of a bottle of red the other day.
You will find it. Happy always sneaks up on you.
Kelley’s last blog post..Karma is a bitch.
*HUG* *BIG HUG* *EVEN BIGGER HUG*
I don’t know if those hugs made you happy - but they helped ME out a lot.
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{{hugs}} You’ll get back to good soon.
Tara R.’s last blog post..It’s for you?
Happiness is one of the biggest choices we have. It comes, most often, with great work and diligently choosing it…
This was a beautiful and incredibly relatable piece.
misty’s last blog post..Fantastic Friday…
I think we all go through lows like this from time to time…here’s hopin’ this doesn’t last for ya. ((hugs))
Colleen - Mommy Always Wins’s last blog post..Remember that time Uncle Al fell off the roof?
*HUGS*
Always remember that your happy can only leave you if you let it. Happiness comes from a choice that must be made every day, every moment (even if the choice is a little pill). I hope you find your happiness within you, depending on nothing or nobody to make you that way. Once you find your happy within, the rest will fall into place. Hugs to you.
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I am the worst bff ever.. I am here.. you can call whenever.. i love ya.
Good grief. The happy was absent here too, I wrote a sad little piece on my blog and am trying to work up to the happy. I’m going back now to see what you said about this post. I applaud you for being honest.
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